Just a Growin Away!

I can't believe my baby is already 3 weeks old. I feel like I just had her last week! And you know what.. everyday I love her more. Each day I think "I couldn't love her more than I do right now" and then the next day.. BAM- more love has grown! In my first week of having her I would just look at her and tear up because I loved her soo much (do you think that was a wee bit of the hormones..). It doesn't help that she is like the cutest thing I have ever seen. I guess I might be partial, but WOW she is so dang cute! Even her poop face is adorable. I will attempt to get a photo of it next time she poops (which P.S. is like ALWAYS!).

I must say that motherhood is everything I thought it would be. It is amazing, tiring, full of worry and even more full of love. My first week was a big adjustment. My life is so different and it took me a couple days to fully take it all in. I am soo happy for the journey that Joey and I have started, but I had a hard time of letting go of the journey that had ended by having a baby. I knew from the beginning that it would be hard, but add in all those dang pregnancy hormones that my body was getting rid of and I was (as Janet says) "one hot mess". Luckily my family was great and I got thru it. Becky (my sis) was able to come up to the hospital everyday and keep me company. Becky was absolutely GREAT after Addie was born. Joey had to work so much that he wasn't able to be up there as much as he wanted to be, so Beck was able to help me do tasks that I needed much assistance with. She even helped me shower (now thats a good sister!). She had to hold my JP drain while I showered the first day after I had her. Needless to say- I have some big favors to return when she gives birth my beautiful neice Mahayla in March!

For those of you who knew how much I was fretting about how breastfeeding would go- It is a success! I had to use stupid nipple sheilds at first, but Adrianna weaned off of them great and now its going great. I am still a worry wart. I always worry that she isn't getting enough milk (even though she is) and I worry that she snacks too much. Through the night she does great- eats about every 3-4 hours and sleeps great in between. But during the day I worry that I am giving her my boob as a pacifier. I only offer her it when she is acting hungry, but sometimes she will eat for 30 minutes and then 30 minutes later she is ready to eat again... I don't know what to do. I don't want her to use me as a pacifier, but I try everything else first and when she doesn't calm down I feed her (even if she just ate. Anyone who has breastfed before- feel free to comment. When I go back to work I don't want to leave Joey with a baby that requires my boob to be soothed.. but sometimes I think that is all she wants. Is it ok for her to eat so frequently sometimes. And at what age do they get into a routine? So many questions... But the good news is that I am breastfeeding and I can't tell you how bad I have wanted to have this experience! I have dreamed of these sore boobs for you don't know how long! ;) Lately I have started to leak a little on the opposite boob whenever I am feeding her. LOL. I don't mind, I just like to see my milk be in good supply!

Alright- I am sorry for all the rambling. I obviously need to write more often! I have started to write about her birth- thats a long one folks. So I am hoping to get that one up before too long.