On The Mind

Day 2 of 2 at work and I can't stop thinking about babies!! This is about the time of month that I start to feel impatient and antsy. My right lower abdomen has been sore tonight and someone said "Maybe you are ovulating". Yay!! I love it when my eggs decide to make an appearance... they just haven't decided to appear when Joeys swimmers make their appearance. Maybe they are shy? They better buck up because Reid/Ahring babies are NOT shy!! Or.. maybe they are. Frankly, I don't care if they are outgoing or shy.. I just want them NOW! :) Tonight JonAnn told me that her sister tried for nearly 1 year before getting pregnant and it gave me hope. I always read about these people who try for over a year and require IVF. That just SUCKS! I do not want IVF! I want to do this thing naturally. Alright alright.. I am going to try and quite thinking about it because we are not technically trying this month. I just need to calm down, relax and just enjoy my husband. I just wanted to share my thoughts.. even though they were a bit lengthy and .. of course about TTC! Thanks for listening (reading) guys.

I Just Couldn't

I'm sorry .. but several days pass and I just kept looking at my blog. My poor little page with no new updates. So I just HAD to writes SOMETHING. I figured that we aren't trying this month anyway.. so if it prevents pregnancy this month I won't even know or have my hopes up. Alright.. lets get real about this. EVERY month I get my hopes up. But... I will not press the TTC issue this month so it shouldn't hurt as bad. Alright.. that's enough of TTC talk.. I could just go on and on about it. You know how I love to talk about my FBR (future baby Reid)~!
On another note.. I am freaking exhausted today! I worked Friday and was off on Saturday. So I slept from like 0830 to 1245. Then I cleaned up the basement (not a small task). I picked up all the trash and boxes, swept the floors then shop vacced the baseboards. Joey and John finished up the fireplace crown moulding. It looks AMAZING!! I am super excited about it! So after we finished up down there Joey and I laid on the kitchen floor for a while. We frequently do that... just lay on the floor and rest. I am pretty sure that nobody else ever does that.. but we certainly love to. Then we went to the store and picked up all sorts of goodies for dinner. Joey made steak, baked potato, mushrooms and garlic bread. Can anyone say delicioso! And I made some chocolate chip toffee cookies. They too were delicious. After that it was back down to the basement for us. Brent even came over to help with all the basement festivities. I am pretty sure that if Brent hadn't came over that we wouldn't have went back to down there to work. Thank you Brent for helping us be productive. Alright.. so then I painted the bottom of all the walls. We didn't get done until 1245. Holy cow is my back is killing me! But overall it was a very productive day. Ok, finally that leads me to today. Joey woke me up at 1045 and said we were going to Nebraska Furniture Mart. He had to pick up a stove for a property so he wanted to look at bedroom furniture. Well... WE FOUND SOME FINALLY!! Yay!! I posted some pics of the furniture. Unfortunately we won't get the set until March since it is an order out. But that's ok.. we have waited this long. We didn't get the mirror to go with the nightstand. It seemed unnecessary.


Then we found this curio in the clearance section. Joey got them to go down an additional $50 from the clearance price. YAY! He is such a good salesman! This curio is going to go in our front room. I am super excited about it! Then we found this curio. Sorry the picture is so small.
It will go in our dining room to put our fine china in. Joey bought some fine china for Christmas last year.. but it has remained in the buffet because we didn't want it to get broken. We might cancel this curio because Joey thinks it might be the wrong color. Who knows! But I am super excited about everything. The only problem about today was 1. I felt like my body had been ran over by a truck and 2.I had to work tonight and I woke up early and didn't get much of a nap. I got home at like 4:30 and tried sleeping until like 5:50. Overall I think I got about 30 minutes of sleep.. but over an hour of rest. And that 30 minutes actually did make me feel tons better!

Sorry for another long blog entry, but obviously it takes a while to explain approx 3 days worth of activities. :)

Until Further Notice

ATTENTION: Per the request of Ashley Wrecke I have decided to stop blogging for a while. I will restart my blogging adventure once I have been blessed with a growing uterus, nausea and excess urination. Ashley reported that people with blogs "don't get pregnant". She is not sure why.. but she has noticed this trend. And frankly.. I have as well. So I am sorry for the inconvenience, but I will attempt to enjoy my blog free time. Thank you and feel free to leave comments on how you feel about Ashleys request.

Too Long!

This might be the longest I have went without blogging. Sorry for the delay!! Much has happened.. Halloween, The Election, Broke my big toe...maybe! I guess we should start with Halloween. It was really fun. J came over in his cute lil elmo outfit and was talking TONS! I can't believe he is already 2 years old. He is so grown up now. Keeley was a scary witch and Sophia was a princess with blue hair. It was fun all around. We had 8 bags of candy and ran out by 9:00. I felt awful because there was a lonely kid that was dressed as a pizza chef and we had already turned off out light. I hope he had already gotten a lot of candy! I was doing my best to only hand out 1-2 pieces of candy.. to make it last. But around 8ish a little girl came up and helped herself to a hand full of candy... HOW RUDE! If her dad wasn't standing there I would have taken a few pieces back.. alright I probably wouldn't have. But shoot, I was already running low! This was the first year that Joey and I had handed out candy and it was tons of fun!! It was hilarious to see all the kids costumes. Unfortunately Joey and I hadn't been feeling all that great that week, so we were both a little tired and cranky by the end of the night.
NEXT... THE ELECTION!! So I did my patriotic act and voted. I must admit I was so concentrated on the presidential election I didn't look up too many of the local candidates. However.. I refuse to vote on someone that I don't know much about. I did that once, the result... Matt Blunt. WOW! He was a very poor choice!!! I felt really proud after I voted, I fulfilled my responsibility.. I helped determine our future. :) I probably don't need to tell you that I voted for Barack- I Baracked The Vote. I knew he would win, I really did. And in my heart I wanted it to be a close election. I wanted John McCain to have a lot of votes. He is so darn cute and old! I just wanted him to think that he almost had it.. just not quite. However Barack came out the very popular candidate. I might have shed a couple tears with his concession (is that how you spell it?) speech. How sad! He said, "The people have spoken and they have spoken clearly". Aww, tear. Then he told the crowd that it was his fault that he lost (which is was) but DANG! Why does he have to make us all feel so sorry for him! How about I vote for John McCain as the cutest old guy in politics? Is there an award for that? With that said I think I should say I have a lot of hope for the future and I think President Obama is the best man for the job!! YAY Barack Obama!!
Next up on the list of things that happened... Joeys grandma died. She was on hospice so it wasn't a surprise. She died on Monday and she went pretty fast once she started to go. The family is doing good and Debbi (Joeys mom) is doing surprisingly well. So I am definitely thanking Jesus for that one. ( I have yet to thank Jesus for the baby growing in my belly because... THERE STILL ISN'T ONE!!) I know Jesus... I'm still giving you time. But PLEASE BE SOON! Ok, I am done talking to Jesus on my blog.
Ok, I know you are wondering about my foot. Thank you for your concern. So I was at Pump It Up on Friday, a place with tons of blow up bouncy things and blow up obstacle courses. It was my friend Christas sons (Jack) birthday party and Christa had challenged Joey on the obstacle course. So Joey had hurt his big toe by jumping over one of the hills and falling strait down on his toes while they were curled. He told me about it and said that his toe "hurt really bad". I thought "ya, ok.. sure. that must suck". Then I went to race Megan on the course and I did the same darn thing on the opposite foot. I think that it is a reflex to tuck those toes in and BAM, then you fall and put all your body weight on those poor little piggys. I had to drag myself through the rest of the course. On the top of my big toe there was a rug burn and a little bit of blood. (Joeys was the same way) I even had to cancel my extra for Saturday due to the possibility of it sucking to walk the next day. I was acting like a true baby. But then later when we got home my foot was really swollen and tender. I have a really bad bruise to my big toe and right above it. My toe and foot look really swollen but they are actually just fat. I think my mom mated with Barney Rubble and got pregnant with me. Christa assessed my foot and then compared it to my other foot and said "You know, your right foot looked really swollen until I saw you left foot. And that is a really bad nail polish." She then proceeded to remove the nail polish. Thank you for the help Christa! Megan also assessed my foot and said "You really don't have pretty feet".
Thanks for all of the encouragement guys! You totally helped my self esteem. Christa also told me "The wool socks weren't your best choice". My feet may have stunk a little bit due to the heat inside the puffy socks.
I just wanted a soft cushion for my poor little fat foot!

**Important to note that this IS NOT my foot or leg. I just thought it was funny and proved my point**

Well guys, I think that is it for now. I have much more to discuss but I have rambled on long enough.

Before and After Pics

The view from our upstairs looking at the dining room and entry way. We remodeled the dining room and changed the entry way light.

This is the dining room a little closer up. It still needs a bit of decorating. Joey did the marble himself. Pretty impressive!


.This is the basement. We took too long to take before pics. But this is when they just started to put up the framing. The next picture is after the dry wall is up. Its the media room with the bathroom right off of it
The bar!! Yay!! I still need to take updated pictures with the fireplace in it.. but this is all I have for now.
Sorry there is so many pictures! I just had a lot I wanted to show you. I must admit.. its much better in person. lol

Busy Bee

Life has been pretty busy lately. Joey and I have been working extra hard. I have really been trying to pick up a lot of extras lately.. nothing too crazy (3-4 this month). Whenever I'm not working at the hospital I am working at home. I am either working on Joeys business stuff or working on the basement. It hasn't been too difficult though. I really enjoy working on our basement! The fireplace is in with the oak trim around it. It is soo much fun to see it come together. I have almost the whole top half of the walls painted. We are doing a chair rail so that's why it is only the top half. :) Joey and I also went on Tuesday and bought carpet for the media room in the basement and our living room. I am even more excited about that. I have been embarrassed about our living room carpet since we moved in. It had bleach stains on it... I have no idea how that happens!! Soon our house will be almost like new. I am still working on posting some pics but Joey keeps taking the camera to work with him so I can't take the pictures off of it. But I promise... soon. Our hope is to have the basement completed by Thanksgiving. We have been working on it for almost a year. Joey just keeps adding more and more stuff. But I think it is going to be well worth the wait!

Thus far.. everything has been going well with the NOT trying to conceive. I think about it quite a bit, but not too much. I still ask friends some TMI questions related to TTC, but not too many. I have been trying to focus on working out more. I have only officially worked out 3 times, my work schedule sometimes makes it difficult to work out when I really should. My bowflex recommended only working out on Mon, Wed and Fri. I am not going to weigh myself for a little while, I feel good so I want to think that I HAVE lost weight. Its all part of my positive thinking campaign. ( I just wanted to use the word campaign).

My Thoughts...

Last night was the third and last presidential debate. It was definitely the best one! McCain came out throwing punches. He also seemed really antsy, Joey thought he had taken some Ritalin. LOL. What was with all the blinking?! However, no matter what McCain would blurt out.. Obama was quick with a come back and remained calm. Obama never ceases to amaze me.. always so calm, cool and collected AND knowledgeable. He is really smart on the issues and has yet to say something that I disagree with. I like his ideas for the economic crisis. I also happen to adore his running mate. During the vice president debate he KILLED Palin with his knowledge. But lets also be real here.. it doesn't take much knowledge to make Palin look silly. I cringe at the possibility that someday Palin could be running this country. She is very pretty and very dumb. :) I completely agree with Katie, I love to talk about politics and listen to others ideas. I am not usually up for a debate though. I never want to tell someone why I feel like their decision is wrong.. I just like to listen to why they have made that decision. I will however correct people when they bring up uneducated "facts" about Obama. i.e. 1.Obama took the American flag off of his plane. 2. He won't say the pledge of allegiance or hold his hand to his heart during the national anthem. 3. He is Muslim. All of these are untrue and if you come to me and tell me you don't like Obama for these reasons I may or may not tell you that you're wrong but I WILL think that you are not smart and worry that you are going to be voting for our future off of false facts. On that note.. I will end my discussion.

So I started to work out this week and I feel really good. I have just been doing my stair climber and the bow flex. I am doing the workout that the bow flex manual suggested and thus far I really like it. It has not helped me take my mind off of TTC but it is making me feel a little better about myself and that is much needed. :) I will keep you posted on the success of the losing weight battle.

I have previously spoke about a family that I adore. The Mooney family. They are the parents of Eliot who had Trisomy 18. They would celebrate his birthday everyday because they knew the odds said he shouldn't be alive. He lived fro 99 days and his life was amazing! His parents couldn't be more awesome! I even emailed his parents and they so graciously emailed me back. Well.. they just had another baby! I am so excited for them! They inspire me to be a better person and to have faith that everything happens when it is suppose to! I am following their blog, it is to the right and called SV. You should check it out.

Time For A Break

As you probably already know, the delay in writing is because I was waiting to find out if I was pregnant. The answer.. no. I already knew I wasn't, but that rude mother nature put a period at the end of it (literally). So.. I was ok with it, really. I thought, "Ok, thats alright. I can work out and lose a couple pounds". I had told Joey that I wanted to take a couple months off of trying to clear the mind and frustration and work out to get back in shape. I had been saying that for a while, I said if I wasn't pregnant by October I would take some time off. What that means is no ovulation kits and no constant checking for pregnancy symptoms. We'll see how I do on that last part :). So when I first started I was like, "Dangit, but I guess thats ok". However, when I told Joey that I wasn't pregnant I got a little teary (thats been a constant thing lately though). I just want to be a mommy so bad and I know Joey is going to be the best dad EVER!


This morning I was cleaning out my purse looking for a receipt and I found a fortune I had gotton a couple weeks ago while eating chinese. We ate chinese food like 3 times within a week and a half and had previously had the fortunes that said "Don't feel like a failure for not making it, feel like a success for trying" and the other one said " Your aspirations will soon be fullfilled". So the time after that my fortune said "To conquer your flaws, you must first accept them". I assumed it was talking about how I had gained weight. But today when I found the fortune in my purse I noticed on the back it had the thing where it tries to teach you to say a chinese word. The word was "Hopeful". And although I currently have tears in my eyes due to my disappointment R/T not being pregnant.. I am hopeful! I feel like it will happen when it is time and Jesus knows what he is doing, as does St.Gerard. I will continue to pray to St. Gerard daily.. multiple times daily, and I will try my best to be patient. I am hopeful that I will get pregnant by 2009. This month was hard because the doctor said it takes a "normal, healthy couple" 4-6 months to get pregnant.. this is month 5 (tear). But I am going to be positive and confident that is WILL happen and there was a reason it didn't this month. So anyway.. my fortune today said "Welcome the change coming soon into your life". What on earth! I keep getting fortunes that I swear are saying "You are having a baby soon, stay calm and get ready to be pregnant". My assumption is that for any other person they would think something COMPLETELY different.. but I feel good about these fortunes. Maybe it is Jesus's way of saying "Don't get down MB, it going to happen soon. Just stop stressing out". So this is me saying "OK Jesus, thank you for letting me know. I will do my best to quite being so crazy and emotional about the whole ordeal".


Alright.. so now I need to refocus and get ready to lose some poundage and "Start getting excited about my life" (thats from Dr.Phil). So.. as usual, here are some pictures of working out. It first is from South Park. That show is pretty funny! And the next one.. a squirrel working out. HOW FREAKIN CUTE! The last.. just a funny picture.

Dog For Free- CUTIE!

Hi everyone! I need a favor

Our neighbor has a puppy he's giving away (FREE). It's a Dachshund, it's house broken, and it's great with kids. He's giving it away because his wife says the dog 'stares' at her when she is undressing, and that gives her the heebie jeebies. I think she is just weird! If you're interested, or know someone who is, let me know. Here's a picture of the dog (see below).

Fortunate

Well after a small amount of time off from blogging I am back and refreshed. I, of course, have had TTC on the mind quite a bit. Mostly exciting stuff though. I read that it is mucho importante to be positive about the whole thing.. so I have been doing my best. I have been using some imagery technique that a website recommended.. I feel like they are already helping. I also am very superstitious and was elated to get two very reassuring fortunes from my chinese fortune cookies. The first one said something like "Don't feel like a failure for not making it, feel like a success for trying". OMG! When I read that it pretty much said "Don't feel sad for not making a baby this month, you will next month". Then the second time we ate chinese my fortune cookie said "Your aspirations will soon be fulfilled" or something like that. Um... I almost peed in my pantalones when I got that. I just feel really positive about this month. However.. if this happens to NOT be the month of conception I am going to do my best to be positive about that as well. I do need to lose a bit of weight and taking off a couple months of TTC would provide the time and I could put forth the same amount of dedication to losing weight as I do TTC. My good friend, Christa, gave me a medal and prayer for St.Gerard, The Saint of Motherhood. I have been praying to St.Gerard frequently and feel really good about it! THANK YOU CHRISTA! When I get pregnant I am going to hug you, you will be slightly responsible! Joeys grandma always would pray to different Saints and would always have her prayers answered, maybe Grandma Reid could talk to St.Gerard in person now. :) Below is a pic of positive thinking. Although it does not relate to TTC positive thinking.. you get the positive picture! :)





On another note, our basement is getting closer to getting done. The bar is really close, YAY! I will post pictures in the next couple days.

Couple Points

Well ladies and gent.. ok I guess its mostly ladies, I have decided to make a couple phrases or sayings off limits. I am going to list them and the reasons why they are off limits.
* Stop trying and you will get pregnant.
YOU GUYS! How on earth do you stop trying when you are so desperate to get pregnant? When every single moment you think about how much you want to be pregnant and how much you want to be a mom. It really doesn't matter if I say "We aren't going to try this month" because in all honesty.. I AM going to try that month. I may not use an ovulation predictor kit, I may not monitor every single symptom for ovulation... ok, ya I will. I will totally monitor my body for possible ovulation symptoms. But know this- I will try NOT to monitor myself, but I will. Its a fact that I myself will just have to learn to deal with. The below picture is a picture of a "conception pillow". :) Who would buy that?! It is like $30!




Alright that lead us to the next phrase:
*Just don't think about it, you are thinking about it too much.
This one leaves me speechless. I want to say "ARE YOU KIDDING ME" in a really high pitched tone. If you ever want to hear me actually say it in that tone, just ask. I have thought about it nearly everyday for at least, AT LEAST 5 years. I didn't want to be pregnant during all that time, but I thought about it. I thought about the anticipation of getting pregnant, how long it would take, how many I will have, and what gender they would be. Believe you me, I don't want to think about it. I really don't. I wish I could think about kitties all the time or cleaning my house or decorating my house.. but I don't. All trains of thought lead back to pregnancy and having kids. Let me take you down a train of thought that happens in my mind, just to show you I can turn anything into thinking about babies. I think "Man, I need to clean the house.. tomorrow I should clean the floors really good.. the floors will need to be cleaned all the time when we have babies". I can change anything in my mind into being pregnant or thinking about having kids. So the moral of this long paragraph.. I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT! I chose the below graphic because it had kids on it. I thought graphic.. being pregnant.. kids. :)



* Just have sex all the time and enjoy it.
1. How do you know I don't?! 2. I never stopped enjoying it! I very much enjoy this part of trying. I do agree that it puts a little pressure on the "act of love" but it still is very much enjoyable. Ok.. I will stop there on that subject. I don't want to get into the TMI zone.



Well guys, I think those are the three that are the most common. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy all the advice. However, that advice is not helpful.

Much Of The Same

Well everyone.. no good news to report. My body has failed me once again... no bundle of cells attaching to me and making me nauseous or causing excess urination. Dangit I want that excess urination and constant nausea! I must admit I was really let down this month. I had a good feeling and I even thought about taking a preggo test a bit early. I did everything people told me to do. I didn't work any overtimes after I got the positive on my ovulation test, I took naps and I tried to not think about it. The last one is more difficult than most can imagine when you are as obsessed with having kids as I am. So this next month I will give the ovulation test a go once again. I have good feelings about this month though because Joeys mowing season is slowing and he should have his work done on other houses. So hopefully we can relax and take it easy together and... make a FBR -Future Baby Reid(as Jessica says). I also told my mom that we were TTC. I have been trying to hold it from her because I really wanted to suprise her with it, but that was a no go. It was nice to be able to talk to my mom about it because I can ask her all about her pregnancy symptoms without having to worry about her wondering why I am asking. My mom was a fertile myrtle, which I can't lie.. ticks me off. Why didn't she pass that on to me!! If it takes me much longer to get preggo she might get fired for a little bit as my mother.. ok maybe not. But don't think I won't think about it! :)

Funsies

I thought I would post a couple "throw back" pics of Joey and I in honour of our 8 year anniversary on 8/28. To celebrate our anniversary we went to Burger King and a rental property to do some work.. ok well maybe that wasn't our celebration. We actually were driving in the car and I said "Hey! Today is our 8 year anniversary" and Joey said "Do you wanna break up?". Man he is so sweet.. he is a keeper, I gotta tell ya! haha! The first pic is from maybe 2002-2003 time about when we had gotton a hotel room. And the second picture if from the night of my nursing graduation. It is a family picture of Joey, Sonny and Me.. it was only appropriate!

Well Joey got Rookie of the Year for wiffle ball.. like there was a question! Clint got golden claw (that means he does great in outfield :) and Cory got BFP and the best pitching award. Ya.. Hicktown pretty much swept the awards ceremony! Im so proud of all of them and am already itching for next season to be here!! :)

I am officially off work for 6 days! I worked 4 in a row and am now off for 6 whole days.. I won't even know what to do with myself. Joey picked the recliners up on Sunday, they are super comfortable! And we got a king sized bed. We don't however have a bedframe for it, so we are gonna be sleeping on our queen for a bit. But thats ok! I am just excited to have a little more leg room, I am sure Joey is too!!

Winners!!

Joey and the Hicktown Bombers defeated Green Machine for the World Series Championship trophy! They didn't have much of a competition, Hicktown is pretty good! Joey had 5 homeruns by himself. His first at bat was a homerun!! Im so proud of him! The only thing that sucks is that wiffle ball is over. I loved watching wiffle ball. I loved talking crap to the other teams and yelling "Hit him in the face" when Brent was up to bat. They are going to have a "fall classic" in a couple weeks, so I guess I can look forward to that! But there are plenty of things that need to get done around the house now that wiffleball is done. i.e. the basement, the kitchen, new carpet, a deck... the list just keeps going and going.
The good news is that I think Sonny will be excited that its over, he would get bored at home by himself on wiffle ball days. And he would always get upset because he couldn't come with us. He loved watching Joey practice in the backyard. The Son Bun was a true fan!
This was Sonnys face when we told him that Daddy had won the world series and he would not be playing every week for a while.

Doggonnit he is the cutest!!

Well I have been trying to keep myself unstressed and calm. I have been laying off on my extras (I only did 2 in August) and I have been using stress relief lotion. If it says stress relief on the bottle it HAS to work.. right? We used an ovulation predictor kit this month so... keep your fingers crossed for me.

World Series Bound

Joeys team made it to the world series! They played 2 games against the Woodcocks, no contest! Joey pitched the first game and he rocked them. I posted a picture of Joey pitching and striking out Brent. Its always fun to give Brent crap.. he should love this picture. :) So there is only one week left for wiffle ball.. I don't know what I am going to do without it. They are going to have a Fall Classic league for a little bit, but it should only be about 2 weeks long. I don't know how many of you actually cared about the wiffle ball, but it was always the highlight of my week so I just wanted to share!

Joey gave me these roses last week when I was feeling down.. you know, in my emotional slump. He came home from going to the store and he brought these in. What a sweet gesture. He can be pretty thoughtful. Well sorry there isn't a better update.. not too much has been going on.

Phelps Fan

In honor of Michael Phelps winning 8 gold medals I decided to post a couple pictures of him. The first is my favorite.. inappropriate and uncomfortable to see. It is a picture that you shouldn't look at but just can't look away. The next picture is a little bit more pleasing on the eyes. As in Christas words, "Me Riky". It was her asian form of me likey. I hope you enjoy these as much I do! Comments welcome!

Nobody likes me, everybody hates me, guess I'll just eat worms

I just came back to work after being off for 4 days. Those days off were WONDERFUL! It made it really hard to come back to work! I have been really tired lately and it is making it really hard to be productive. I have been trying to workout and clean the house, but instead all I end up doing is falling asleep on the couch. I have been trying to keep up my spirits, but I feel sad. I don't know why, I just don't feel like doing anything.. thats probably why I am so tired. I think it is just a slump. So I have decided to compile a list of things I am looking forward to.
* Being off for another 4 days after tomorrow
* Wiffle ball playoffs on Sunday
* Getting our recliners next week (we went to NFM and bought 2 new recliners, they rock and recline.. AWESOME!)
*Maybe going to worlds of fun again next week.

While making this list it did make me a little more excited about life. Well.. that sounded bad. I am excited about life.. just anxious and sad about it. Who knows why.. I am just an emotional girl and I am in an emotional slump. Sorry about this post being so down in the dumps.. this will be the last one. I am going to try and work on being happy and less emotional (any ideas on how to do so, just let me know!)I named this post after a song my stepmom would sing to me when I was a kid anytime I was feeling sorry for myself or was sad.

Failed.. AGAIN

So I knew in my soul that I wasn't pregnant this month, I just knew it. However, that did not stop me from having hopes that I was and talking to Jesus about it every day. I wasn't even suppose to start stupid Aunt Flo until NEXT Friday. That intrusive (blank) came TODAY! TODAY!!! Approx 6 days early, can you believe the nerve she has. Not only did she come early, she reared her nasty face with pretty yucky cramps. Ok, so let me get this strait... Not trying to get pregnant- 29 day perfectly on time normal cycle. First month of trying- 32 day cycle with all the pregnancy signs and symptoms (yet no mold spore growing in my belly). The month after that a normal 32 day cycle. Now..27 day cycle. Im telling you.. my body just can't get this thing right! But on a positive note, this month Joey and I can get started early on this baby making business! Lisa even brought me some ovulation predictor strips. Isn't that nice! I didn't want to have to use stuff like that but it is obvious that my body isn't going to give me anything to work with me here. I am going to try and not work as many extras this month so I can relax a bit more. I think thats what helped the first month. When I work I am constantly looking up crap on the internet, but at home Joey keeps my mind off of it (as much as possible).

Happy Birthday!

Yesterday 8/5 was Sonnys 3rd Birthday. My baby is growing up! I felt bad because I had to work, day 3 of 4, so I couldn't spend all day with him. But he did come sleep with me for a while, so I didn't feel as bad. I think he enjoys his naps with me. Joey made steak for dinner because it is one of Sonnys favorite meals. We didn't give him a whole steak, we just gave him small peices of ours. And I can tell that some of you are rolling your eyes and laughing at me, but IT WAS HIS BIRTHDAY! We would have given him a whole steak if we didn't think it would make him sick. We didn't really have any gifts for him, just some snacks and steak. He also broke one of his toys, he tore the bell off of it. So I attached the bell to one of his straws, he was in heaven. He LOVED it! I can't wait to be off on Thursday, we can spend some nice quality time together! I do feel obligated to say I am equally excited to be off so I can spend some nice quality time with my husbano! I really start to miss him after working 4 in a row. And I have really been tired these last couple days. It has felt like I am on my 4th when I am only on my 2nd or 3rd. But I will survive.

Tonight I showed Amanda W. the video about Eliot Mooney. Most of you know how much I love that baby and his family. I have never met them but I feel so close to them just because I have read every entry of thier blog. Eliot was diagnosed with Trisomy 18 at 30 weeks gestation. When he was born the doctors said they didn't think he would live very long, if at all after birth. Well he did, he lived for 99 days and every day they celebrated a birthday. When I read the blog it fills me with hope. It makes me realize how much little stuff doesn't matter and that some people are just simply amazing. Those are the only words that I can find to describe the Mooney family- Simply Amazing. Their blog is http://www.ninetynineballoons.com/. If you want a whole lot of tears, laughter and hope- this is the blog you should read. I want to share with you one of the entrys that really tugged at my heart strings. Matt Mooney is the author and he is one of the best writers I have ever seen.

Eliot passed away on 10/26/06. This entry was written on 12/13/06. Tell me what you think.
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For the first time that I am aware of, I did that which I had asked for the previous week. I tell you just so you know, but also in the event that you prayed for such. The memory of Eliot brought first a smile. May more of the same come.

Genesis 32 recounts an unusual story. A heavenly WrestleMania, if you will:

This left Jacob all alone in the camp, and a man came and wrestled with him until the dawn began to break. When the man saw that he would not win the match, he touched Jacob’s hip and wrenched it out of its socket. Then the man said, “Let me go, for the dawn is breaking!”

But Jacob said, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.” … Then he blessed Jacob there.

Jacob named the place Peniel (which means “face of God”), for he said, “I have seen God face to face, yet my life has been spared.” The sun was rising as Jacob left Peniel, and he was limping because of the injury to his hip.

This story, strangely, was the first scripture that came to my mind upon finding out about Eliot’s diagnosis. I would love to insert some great epic reason for why that was the case, but the truth is- I had no idea why.

I assume from the story that this “man” is some sort of heavenly being. Particularly what sort of being is not important to me just now.

Here’s what I do see. Jacob got his blessing. He wanted it, asked for it, fought for it, and received it. But that is not all that he got.

Jacob left this encounter with a limp. Not a sermon often preached. However, Jacob’s story of blessing could not be told without the follow-up that he was never able to walk right again. That’s the funny thing about God, the blessing doesn’t always come as we expected and although we receive the blessing, we're left to limp along.

Eliot was a blessing. We’ll never be all right without him. But he was well worth the limp.
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I sometimes get a little nervous because I am so drawn to stories similar to these. I can't help but wonder if this is God preparing me for a child with a deadly genetic condition. But as Joey says "You can't worry about that, all you can do is hope for the best. If thats what is planned, we can't do anything about it". Joey is also very resistant to the thought of anything being wrong with any of our children. (If we ever get pregnant :)

Emotions

My grandparents came in town on Friday from Phoenix Arizona. It was really nice to see them. My grandpa is getting a wee bit confused at his age, but it only gives him character. He kept thinking my grandma was my aunt and I would have to keep correcting him. But thats ok! My grandma made breakfast this morning, buttermilk pancakes. They were really good. I could only eat 3 small ones though because they really fill you up. Joey made me feel like a heffer because he only had 2. But it was really nice having breakfast with them. They are going to be driving up to Iowa and then they will drive back through before they head back to Phoenix.
I have kind of felt sorry for Joey these past couple days. I will cry at the drop of a hat. A poem, a card, or a commercial. Yesterday it was that I had to work and for some reason I thought that I was off. When I found out I was a bit of an emotional mess. My mom even asked me if I was pregnant because I was being so emotional. I told her no, but secretly I hope that I am (of course you know that). I hope that I am because I am excited to get pregnant but also because I don't want to be this emotional for no reason! I felt like an idiot. I just sat in my car for about an hour because we were at my parents house and I didn't want everyone to know I was crying. I feel stupid even saying anything on here, but oh well.
Ok now for the fun news. So at work one of the nursing supervisors came up and said that she knew this really fun predictor of how many kids you would have and what gender they would be. She used her medal necklace and put it over my wrist. It goes back and fourth if you were going to have a boy and in a circle if its a girl. Then it will stop in between the kids. Mine went boy, girl, boy and then it stopped moving. I was SOOO excited. Thats exactly what I want!!! We even tried the people we knew had kids and it predicted right. Isn't that exciting! So thats it for now. Hopefully I will have more fun stuff to talk about soon!

Again...

I am sorry.. ONCE AGAIN.. that it has taken me so long to update. I was sick for a while and I didn't feel like moving, so updating the blog wasn't on the top of the list. So we will start from the top. Joeys mom had her surgery for the tracheal stenosis. She was 95% closed off. Can you believe that?! Thats crazy, she only had 5%of airway to breathe thru. The good new is that they were able to open her airway to 80%. So that was Thursday, then on Friday I started to get sick. I was hoping that at first it was pregnancy sickness, but that idea soon subsided when I developed diarrhea (sorry, I know thats TMI). Joey even skipped his wiffle ball because.. well there are 2 reasons: 1. A renter totally tore up a property and he had to make a police report and board up the windows. 2. He wanted to be home to take care of little ol me! What a sweetie huh!

***Pregnancy Thoughts***
Well I wasn't suppose to start ovulating until 7/29 (per the calender method), but my body told me otherwise last week. So Joey and I did a little bit of "baby dancing", but I am not sure it was enough. My nintendo wii told me I would get pregnant this month. It wouldn't lie to me would it? I had a consultation with Megan B. and Amanda W. Amanda told me that I had a 50/50 chance of pregnancy. Don't get me wrong, I am still actively trying as if I am currently ovulating but I am pretty sure the time has passed. Megan also told me I need to quite thinking so "scientifically" and leave it up to Jesus (What if Jesus comes today). The only thing about that is I talk with Jesus all the time. We talk about lots of things and pregnancy frequently comes up. However, I have not heard anything back as of yet. Joey's parents are really laying it on thick now. Twice now they have told us to "Get busy". The other day Joeys mom called and said, "Hasn't it been about 14 days since the start of your last period, maybe you guys should try tonight". The weird thing- it HAD been exactly 14 days since the start of my last period, and of course we did do it that night.We haven't even told his parent that we are trying, they just took it upon themselves to bring this subject matter up. Joeys dad even bought us KU baby outfits (which makes me super excited!). So.. once again think happy thoughts for me. I am hoping the nintendo is right and that this little lady will be carrying a baby by next month!!
P.S. Joeys team finished out the wiffle ball season 19-1. Yeah!!

A Few Pics

I thought I would share a few pics that I took these last few weeks. Me being the Suzie home maker that I am, made a coconut cream pie last week. I bought a recipe magazine and told Joey to pick out a recipe and I would make it. Of course he had to pick the most complicated. But I was pretty happy with the result, as you can see it is gorgeous!

This is a picture of the Son Bun. He always likes to play in the soda boxes and it never gets old. His belly is a little bigger than it used to be, so he has to try harder to get all the way in (thats what she said). He is quite possibly the cutest cat ever though don't you think! :)

Love

Joey and I were laying in bed watching The Today Show this morning when I got home and they showed this video. It is about a lion named Christian and his owners who had to let him go in the wild. It made me a bit teary eyed because it reminded me of the Son Bun. I think he would jump all over us if we had to let him go in the wild and came back to see him after a year. I hope it brings a warm fuzzy feeling to you as it did for me! I know some of you are laughing at me and my love for the Son Bun, but I can't help it. He is my first son! :) I hope when Joey and I finally have a baby that Sonny won't be sad. We read that when cats get lonely they will over clean themselves and make themselves sick so that the owners will give them attention. So, I have been watching Sonny very closely to make sure he isn't over cleaning himself. Its really funny because if you say to him "Sonny, are you going to clean your butt?" he will get up and walk away. He will them give us a mean look with both ears down, its pretty funny. I think I might be laughing more than you right now. :)

Favorites

Sorry for the delay in writing. It seems like I never do anything interesting. I had to miss Joeys wiffle ball games yet again this week because I work. His team is 17-1 now though. They pretty much rock. I love going to the games because I like to heckle the players on the other teams. I usually say things like "Hit him in the face" or if they throw the ball and it hits one of our players I will say "Hey sucka, keep it clean. Do it again and Im rushing the mound". I even have signs made up that say "Give it up, its over kids" or "Joey Reid for president". I am really hoping to have off for the playoffs and the world series games. It should be awesome. I might be more into it than most wives, but I think Im more dedicated when it comes to the wife position. :)
I got a Wii Fit for my birthday and I have been working out quite a bit (at least 2 days a week, thats good right?). I have determined I have really bad balance and I should probably never go snowboarding. My goal is to lose about 5-10 pounds before I get pregnant. The thing is.. I want to get pregnant now. So I have approximately 6 days before ovulation time. After that hopefully I will be gaining weight. If you don't have any other wishes you want, at 11:11 each day and night you can go ahead and wish that I get pregnant this month. It would be perfect to get pregnant now because then I would be due in April and I would have off July 4th next year!! Yeah! I am trying to calm down and not get to anxious about the whole ordeal. If you have any ideas on calming down and being worry free, Im open to suggestions. This month I am going to try some Rasberry tea per a coworkers suggestion. The wii fit has yoga and I have been doing that. It is fun and I like it, but I don't think it relaxes me. The only thing it helps let loose is my toots. Ok, not really. I just said that because I know the face Katie is making right now! :)
Well I thought I would leave you with some hilarious videos that I thoroughly enjoy. Everytime I watch them I laugh hysterically!
Rock Of Love- SNL
http://www.redlasso.com/ClipPlayer.aspx?id=982f797c-87a2-456f-9781-54958c94ef4c

http://www.truveo.com/Grape-stomping-lady-falls/id/1548024970

www.truveo.com/Saturday-Night-Live-Surprise-Party/id/1464363109 - 65k -
Justin Timberlake- SNL (D*** In A Box)
http://uncutvideo.aol.com/videos/35c82886ddcdd7d2c1593defee5525fe

I hope you enjoy them as much as I do!!

Reminicing

I was looking at some pictures of my wedding today to make a book for Joeys mother and I was reminded of what a beautiful day it was. The day was perfect, Joey looked awesome, my dress was great and our cake was wonderful. Oh wait, never mind our cake was eerily similar to a snowman. So I decided I would show a picture of what it was SUPPOSE to be, what it was, and what it might as well been.

What it was suppose to be

What it was

What it might as well of been!!

Even still thought I don't think I would change anything about my wedding day. It just gave it character!

Time to Wave Goodbye

Well... I thought this could be it, I really did. I went to sleep, no Aunt Flo. Woke up, no Aunt Flo. So I took a pregnancy test when I got up and it was a BFN (thats big fat negative in the trying to conceive world)! How frustrating I thought. But there is still hope right.. those dumb tests are wrong all the time right (wishfull thinking). So I got ready for work and finished eating dinner. I was having mild cramps, nothing special or harsh, just cramps. But in my head I thought, "Maybe this is implantation cramps". LOL. So I went to the bathroom to double check. Well surprise! there was Aunt Flo right there. Excuse my language but what a b**ch!!! She wasn't welcome, I didn't invite her this month. I told her to not come for another 9 months! What is her deal?! So once again I must look down at the toilet and wave goodbye to a small piece of me. "Goodbye little half complete bundle of cells, you could have been amazing!" LOL. So now all of a sudden I have a 32 day cycle. Well at least next month I won't get excited prematurely.