Time For A Break

As you probably already know, the delay in writing is because I was waiting to find out if I was pregnant. The answer.. no. I already knew I wasn't, but that rude mother nature put a period at the end of it (literally). So.. I was ok with it, really. I thought, "Ok, thats alright. I can work out and lose a couple pounds". I had told Joey that I wanted to take a couple months off of trying to clear the mind and frustration and work out to get back in shape. I had been saying that for a while, I said if I wasn't pregnant by October I would take some time off. What that means is no ovulation kits and no constant checking for pregnancy symptoms. We'll see how I do on that last part :). So when I first started I was like, "Dangit, but I guess thats ok". However, when I told Joey that I wasn't pregnant I got a little teary (thats been a constant thing lately though). I just want to be a mommy so bad and I know Joey is going to be the best dad EVER!


This morning I was cleaning out my purse looking for a receipt and I found a fortune I had gotton a couple weeks ago while eating chinese. We ate chinese food like 3 times within a week and a half and had previously had the fortunes that said "Don't feel like a failure for not making it, feel like a success for trying" and the other one said " Your aspirations will soon be fullfilled". So the time after that my fortune said "To conquer your flaws, you must first accept them". I assumed it was talking about how I had gained weight. But today when I found the fortune in my purse I noticed on the back it had the thing where it tries to teach you to say a chinese word. The word was "Hopeful". And although I currently have tears in my eyes due to my disappointment R/T not being pregnant.. I am hopeful! I feel like it will happen when it is time and Jesus knows what he is doing, as does St.Gerard. I will continue to pray to St. Gerard daily.. multiple times daily, and I will try my best to be patient. I am hopeful that I will get pregnant by 2009. This month was hard because the doctor said it takes a "normal, healthy couple" 4-6 months to get pregnant.. this is month 5 (tear). But I am going to be positive and confident that is WILL happen and there was a reason it didn't this month. So anyway.. my fortune today said "Welcome the change coming soon into your life". What on earth! I keep getting fortunes that I swear are saying "You are having a baby soon, stay calm and get ready to be pregnant". My assumption is that for any other person they would think something COMPLETELY different.. but I feel good about these fortunes. Maybe it is Jesus's way of saying "Don't get down MB, it going to happen soon. Just stop stressing out". So this is me saying "OK Jesus, thank you for letting me know. I will do my best to quite being so crazy and emotional about the whole ordeal".


Alright.. so now I need to refocus and get ready to lose some poundage and "Start getting excited about my life" (thats from Dr.Phil). So.. as usual, here are some pictures of working out. It first is from South Park. That show is pretty funny! And the next one.. a squirrel working out. HOW FREAKIN CUTE! The last.. just a funny picture.